“If we would only see that all limitations are self-imposed and chosen out of fear, we would leap at once.” – Adyashanti
Why is it most of us bristle at the sheer idea of being truly seen? We dream will have a better figure, be happier, more connected. Gone are the days when we can delight in our own appearance.
A couple of weeks ago I had to opportunity to face a current fear. Well I didn’t HAVE to, but knew it could be a game changer. I stood in front of the camera. Not because I lost 10 lbs or felt beautiful or even just to celebrate something. I booked a session just because the mere idea made me crazy, it caused me to feel fear and doubt myself.
You see this past year I shifted priorities in my life and as many of you know when we change our focus and drop the very things that matter the results can be dire. I would liken my year to riding a roller coaster, as I rode the waves of highs and lows and occasional bumps I let the very thing that would keep me going slide. Food. Yes food. The very fuel that is required to keep us healthy and strong. As time ran out of my hands I didn’t prioritize what I needed and ME. Now months later that food that was eaten out of convenience and not with thought have added a few unwelcome pounds.
Of course we all have an ideal vision of ourselves. We set the bar that we stand by regardless of our age, status or situation. So when we deter from that bar it can have devastating effects of not feeling worthy, good enough, beautiful. So here I am outing myself that yes I too struggle.
These photos are the beginning of the next chapter in my life, a chapter about focusing on self-care. As time goes by, my body will shift with the nurturing foods and exercise I supply it and I will have the experience and photos of being truly seen to remind me where I stand and what I stand for.
Big thank you and shout out to my friend Trina, from Trina Koster Photography in Guelph, Ontario for capturing these moments for me. It was a wonderful evening standing in front of the camera and being truly seen.
Ready to gain a superpower and learn to delight in your own appearance? Or even if you aren’t, I invite you to contact me. Let’s talk! Shannon Nicholson, Cambridge Kitchener Waterloo Guelph Portrait Boudoir photographer.